Remember all my little color experiments with the Caran D'ache neocolors? I knew I wanted to make something out of them. So they were cut up, rearranged, and added to this new little book. Here's the story.
This past winter and spring I had a hard time with parenting. The kids were overwhelming to me, I never felt like I was in control of my household, the cooking, the cleaning, the caretaking. It was getting me down. Way down. In late spring I finally decided that maybe it would be beneficial to talk to someone about it. Like, someone besides my poor husband and mother who already hear about all my travails. I contacted a local faith-based counseling center and made an appointment.
And honestly? I think the simple act of making that appointment made just as much of a difference as the sessions I went to. It meant to me that I was taking charge of my negative emotions, that I wasn't going to let them trample all over me anymore. It was good to have someone neutral to talk to, but the process itself just didn't work for me. Basically, what I was really looking for was someone that would tell me how to get my kids to stop screaming at each other and give me practical tips about how to complete my daily tasks without drowning in a pool of (really unwarranted) self-pity.
But examining and working through my feelings? I can do that myself. All I need is some alone time, paper, and glue. As soon as I decided that seeing a therapist is not for me, I made this little book. It was a much happier and more productive use of my time.
I can't attribute it to anything specific, but a few weeks ago a switch flipped and I'm back to feeling like my self. I've made a lot of little changes to our household, our routines, and my attitude and I'm doing ten times better than I was this winter. The past few weeks have been really great.
(PS. Thanks for listening to my story. :) )